Hello bloggy friends! Today I thought I would throw myself back into blogging with a little bit of a personal post. I have been feeling a little down in the dumps lately and realised I have been lacking in self confidence and not fully living and enjoying life the way I should! Since I graduated last year I have gotten stuck in a bit of a rut. I haven't put any of my skills to use and have found my current employment a little mind numbing to say the least. It's true that it is incredibly difficult to find employment, even for graduates, and once I do find posts to apply to I am either rejected straight away or refused after interview because the roles have already been filled by people that have an unfair advantage (some roles have already been filled before they are even advertised which is so frustrating!). Recently I decided I'd had enough and applied to so many jobs, and realised that part of the problem was I had been underestimating myself and feeling like I wouldn't be good enough for some jobs; this simply isn't true. I have managed to bag myself a fair few interviews so I am certainly feeling much more optimistic but even better; I'm starting to believe in myself. It's strange that no matter how many times family and friends told me I was a smart, capable and hard working person that I never fully believed it. I'm still not sure what has given me my confidence back but I have a sneaky suspicion it has something to do with the fact that I just don't want to be that person anymore! As i have always said; if you don't like an aspect of your life
then change it! And I didn't like feeling down about myself and being stuck in a place I didn't want to be.
Ok, so maybe I'm still in that same job and similar routines but simply changing my attitude and how I feel about myself has made all the difference. I guess what I'm trying to say is happiness comes from within. I used to read this sort of thing everywhere and I just didn't understand it. I seemed to think that having nice clothes and a nice car and a great job and lots of friends and a perfect boyfriend would make me happy. Sure these things can help, but they don't create happiness. I'm lucky enough to have a supportive family, a great boyfriend who makes my life better just by being there, a few hilarious and great friends and very little reason to feel sad if i'm being totally honest with myself. I guess what I'm saying is - stop comparing your life to others, stop feeling bad about your imperfections and follow your dreams - because you deserve it! None of this is easy, but life is a journey, not a destination so enjoy the ride. A bit of a ramble and it may not make sense but I hope this helps someone, anyone to realise how great they are and what they can achieve if they believe in themselves.
